Lenten Daily Devotional: Sylvia Schmidt
Prayer for the Day from Sylvia Schmidt
“I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world.” John 16:33
THE LIE: As the eldest in my family, from a child to entering twenties, I tried to do everything I thought would please my earthly father. My mom would say “make your dad proud.” My mom was a deep woman of faith who lived some hard trials with my dad. So, to make life easier for mom, I studied really hard to always be “A” student, I didn’t disobey for fear of making my dad angry, I’d cry myself to sleep thinking I’d never be good enough. And then at 19, my mother dies very suddenly of a cerebral aneurism. What the heck? My mom was the glue to our family. I was hurt by God, angry with Him for doing this – especially after doing everything, right? So, after consolation from my grandmother with God’s promises to trust, I did and today I have seen much of His plan. My dad came to know Jesus later on in his life and now both are in heaven.
The lie in my 20’s (and even sometimes today) was that I would never allow myself to completely love like I loved my mother because I feared God would snatch them away from me. So, I would never allow myself to get that hurt ever again. I never wanted to feel that kind of pain again. Back then I thought if I follow God’s ways, there is too much hurt. I thank God, I have come to learn that the pain has been a means of growth by God’s grace. PRAYER: Dear Father, thank you for being a Good, Good Father. Thank you for holding onto me during the many times I’ve been spiritually dry especially during some very painful moments in this broken world. Thank you for family that in the midst of pain, you kept us together. Thank you for helping me to see the “glue” that kept my mother faithful to you. Help me to walk through my fears by facing them instead of being paralyzed by them or running away. I want to daily take Your hand and trust Your heart with all that is within me. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.